1.A Natural
Today is not a good day for me, for today I found out I was mad,
as I have discovered this in the last 45 minutes my madness is
still new, fresh in my mind so to say, so I can understand it
more. It has come to my attention that over the past year and a
half I have acquired a condition known as acute paranoid
schizophrenia in relation to everyone and everything I did. It
gradually worsened through the year to this point of realisation
that I have a twin mind.
And in the intervening time I consumed with a passion various
things to keep the main side happy, and as the main side grew
hungrier quicker, and if it wasn't fed each time, it began to
eat the other.
Distrust of everything, it ran in the family, at least on my
mothers side. There was too much trust in the other. I am it's
eldest offspring and I too have distrust too much. That's why I
don't want children. Each person has their own tragedy, mine as
I found out was this fear of my old lady turning into the very
same old lady that I despised when I grew up.
But you fall in love and is it possible to fall in love with
every woman you meet, you just stand there with your mouth open,
thinking wishing I never existed. But this is my time and the
girl I just met should be here 'cause here was a woman who held
me and did not copy my every move, she just let it happen, never
asked, but I answered for I myself am heaven and hell.
Today is not a day for me
Today is not for me
2.Blinded
I might give up everything for you
I might grow up dreaming I was you (I was you)
I could live here dressed in honey's things
I could eat up everything she brings
'Cause it comes clear in pictures of here
You're my fear, you're my fear
It comes clear in pictures of here
You're my fear, you're my fear
Everywhere you go
Everywhere you go
Everywhere you go
You're still not clear
She might hang on every word I say
She might grow up thinking that's the way (that's the way)
Everyday I bring home something new
Everyday I'm trying to please you
'Cause it comes clear in pictures of here
You're my fear, you're my fear
It comes clear in pictures of here
You're my fear, you're my fear
Everywhere you go
Everywhere you go
Everywhere you go
You're still not clear
Body kind to lover who won't last
Pleasing you no questions asked
Barefoot and blind you lead me astray
A weaker man might have given way
Five stories high, five ways to die
Machete, gun, flick-knife, boot and needle passed
From dangerous lovers to each other
No questions ever asked
Too much is real enough for me
Life's not what it used to be
'Cause it comes clear in pictures of here
You're my fear, you're my fear
It comes clear in pictures of here
You're my fear, you're my fear
Everywhere you go
Everywhere you go
Everywhere you go
You're still not clear
3.Fiction
Done with drinking, thinking, fighting
I've sat down and washed out greed
Turned on shyness, conquered weakness
Out of kindness some say need
Hear me, I can't find a place where I belong
Hear me, never give much thought to what went wrong
I can't control myself
I can't control myself
No more songs for swinging lovers
Streams of whisky over me
U.C. Bjorling be my teacher
Dress me down like Kid Chelene
Bleed me, there must be more to life than this
Bleed me, I can't recall the things I miss
I can't control myself
I can't control myself
God knows that I'm only trying
Only trying to please me
Not for me your idol worship
Not for me your games of greed
Forgive me, I can't find a line to fit this song
Forgive me, I'm not a friend who lasts for long
I can't control myself
I can't control myself
I can't control myself
I can't control myself
4.Morning Rise
Heard the news that Johnny's free
Not that means much to me
I look down and all I see
There's nothing staring back at me
I remember all the things you said
I remember all the things you said
When our time comes, when our time comes
I will know, I will know
When our time comes, when our time comes
I will know, I will know
Misery and Wednesday's dead
He's thinking of the life she's led
I don't owe you anything
I can't change the life you live
Maybe I'm no ordinary fool
Maybe I'm no ordinary fool
When our time comes, when our time comes
I will know, I will know
When our time comes, when our time comes
I will know, I will know
John came home from work one day
And watched her tidy things away
Don't look at me like I'm insane
Don't take for granted life this way
I can't do anything for you
I can't do anything for you
When our time comes, when our time comes
I will know, I will know
When our time comes, when our time comes
We will know, we will know
I can't suppress these feelings any longer
You excite me, delight me, inspire me, drive me
It's in your eyes a fire that's wild and glorious
Unhibited, unfinished in everything I do
Let the morning rise like our hearts desire
I can't help thinking that I love you
5.Personality
I want to marry a personality
Someone who looks just like Koo Stark
And people grow old, they get bored
They forget to take a risk
Sunken dreams for Mr Field
Sold out to the Longman Oz
Solid days and liquid nights
Red boy loved our pavement fights
Now in the dark they'll be left waiting
Waiting to be told
And in the dark they'll be left waiting
With nothing left to hold
I wish I were in a bright green field
Staring at the bright blue sky
Like genius revealed, I am ignorant of what she feels
Red guitars and broken hearts
Scarecrow bleeds what no-one needs
Ticket man must play the clown
All our lives spent Underground
'Cause in the dark they'll be left waiting
Waiting to be told
And in the dark we'll all be waiting
With nothing left to hold
The fantastic thing about the female is that she was
Put on this earth to be admired and adorned not
Abused, or so the Senator said, one night in
J.J. Smyths where all the punks had played and the
Jazz men have their day. While the cat was sitting
In the corner, sniffing out his 20%
A sniffing and a licking
A drinking and a thinking
About how his life was spent
And then he'd fly, fly into a rage
Because his mind became delayed
And he'd start accusing every one of us
That he'd been betrayed
'Cause in the dark he's been left waiting
Waiting to be told
In the dark he's been left waiting
With nothing left to hold
And in the dark we'll all be waiting
Never to be told
6.The Honeymoon Is Over
The honeymoon is over
And you're still with me
I'm sitting here and I'm tired
I've found my disease
My back's against a wall now
This time I'll prove you wrong
And you had to stop, you had to stop and say
It's not right, it's not right
I've been a liar all my life
Love is something we find in danger
What a feeling when it's not right
You're a master of disguise now
You had to learn to tell your lies
I'm steady on my knees
I'm steady on my knees
All ready on my knees
My back's against a wall now
This time I'll prove you wrong
And you had to stop, you had to stop and say
It's not right, it's not right
It's not right, it's not right
It's not right, it's not right
It's not right, it's not right
I've been a liar all my life
A rambling rose with a musky smell walked
Into my life and told me things that I cannot tell
I'm gonna sow the seeds of doubt in your mind
Now I'm gonna change the way you wonder
The way you lie
But the beeps are coming baby and it's time to say goodbye
I'll phone you back again, I'll phone you back and lie
So you remember now how to get your story straight
I follow in your footsteps
I've been telling the same old lies
For the same old sake
So you remember now
What it takes to make a mother cry
You stupid boy
So you remember now
What it takes to make a woman cry
You silly boy
7.Tripped
It's easy to believe in you
Reasons to cast doubt on me
Easy to believe in you in you
I'll put my faith in womanhood
Just like my mother said I would
Easy to believe in you in you in you
Was I the only one to know
That she'd been letting go
Accept your mind and your body lives
She had nothing left to give
Need you to fall back on to
Need me more than I need you
Easy to be just like you like you
I've lost my faith in all things good
Just like mother said I would
You'll be left there on the shelf
Can't save someone from themselves
Was I the only one to know
That she'd been letting go
Accept your mind and your body lives
She had nothing left to give
She tripped, she tripped
She tripped, she tripped
She had nothing left to give
She had nothing left to give
Except you
You know you were the only one
You said to me, why did you stop
You know you were the only one
You said to me, why did you stop
Alone again alone
She tripped, she tripped
She tripped, she tripped
She had nothing left to give
She had nothing left to give
Except you
You know you were the only one
You know you were the only one
You know you were the only one
You know you were the only one
It's easy to be just like you
8.Twinkle
Waiting to be bled
Turning tricks just like your mother
Left my dreams for dead
Making out with every other
She's the air I breathe not too pure for me
She's the air I breathe not too cheap for me
She's the only one for me now and always
She's the only one for me now and always
She's the only one for me now and always
She's the only one for me
Hole right through her head
I think I might be nothing to her
Sing it now she said
Fuck I might be here forever
She's the air I breathe not too pure for me
She's the air I breathe not too cheap for me
She's the only one for me now and always
Ringing in my head
Too clearly I can hear you moving
You talk sister fear
You're gonna pay for all the hate I'm giving
She's the air I breathe not too pure for me
She's the air I breathe not too cheap for me
She's the only one for me now and always
9.Users
I have used so many people
For no reason or no gain
Sometimes it's just for fun
Or a way to keep me sane
There's someone lost inside of me
Who drowned in risky games
You ask too many questions for me to feel okay
What if you lost all those fears of me
I tell you it's not easy
Cause with grace I made you pay
The limits that we set make good lovers turn away
Remember how not long ago
We screwed away the pain
I tell you it's not easy, each dog must play his game
What if you lost all those fears of me
I'll let you go so don't beg me, beg me
I'll let you go so don't beg me, beg me
I'll let you go so don't beg me, beg me
Now you've gone and I'm still same
But that will never change
A bitter love, a broken love, a love that stays the same
Now you've gone and I'm to blame
There's nothing left to say
I told you it's not easy, each dog must play his game
Walk out of here, you could run out of time
But I'm never gonna get to you
You have loved all my lies and plagued my desires
But I'm never gonna get to you
It's the end of my time and I have to decide
If I ever wanna see it through
Beg me, beg me, beg me
10.We Don't Need Nobody Else
In the morning I am a recluse, lost in memories
Ideal situations and convulsions
I'm never in and I can't remember
They built portholes for Bono, so he could gaze
Out across the bay and sing about mountains
Maybe. You are what you own in this land
You can be King and it all depends on the view and what you can
see
And around here nobody tells me what to do anymore
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
Why say words that I do not mean
They only serve to amuse, ridicule and destroy,
Hardly ever to teach
I hit you for the first time today
I didn't mean it
It just happened
You wouldn't let me go to the phone,
You wanted to make love and I did not
Now I know the distance between us
Christ we weren't even fighting, I was just annoyed
Silence and you started to cry, that really hurt
You said, yeah and you thought you knew me
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
Just you and me
Just you and me
Consider this as the wine takes hold
And sinks into your veins
I try to force it but it's not there
Love gives you comfort
And comfort makes you dim
She's in the kitchen
Putting beads in her hair
It all came out tonight
The queen of drugs broke down and cried
'Cause she'd been shagging her best friends guy
She knew the form, she knew the lie
She wasn't shy and she refused to try
That's why I'm gazing out of portholes
And I'm wondering why
We don't need nobody else
We don't need nobody else
Just you and me
11.When We Were Young
When we were young nobody died
And nobody got older
The toughest kid in the street
Could always be bought over
And the first time that you loved
You had all your life to give
At least that's what you said
The first time you got drunk
You drank pernod and dry cider
Smashed a window in as the police came round the corner
You didn't have no time to run
And your dad stood up for you
As the judge said you're a fool
Babies, sex and flagons, shifting women, getting stoned
Robbing cars, bars and pubs, rubber johnnies, poems
Starsky and Hutch gave good TV
And Starsky looked like me
The first time that you stole
You stole rubber lips and tenners
Bought a radio then ran away for ever
Never felt so good, never felt so good with you
When we were young we had no fear
Of love nor sex nor warnings
Everyone was hanging out, everyone was sorted
When we were young nobody knew
Who you were or what you'd do
Nobody had a past that catches up on you
Babies, sex and flagons, shifting women, getting stoned
Robbing cars, bars and pubs, rubber johnnies, poems
Starsky and Hutch gave good TV
And Starsky looked like me
What might have been
What might have been
What might have been
With a start he was awoken
From the middle of a dream
He's making movies in his head
That never will be seen
He's holding Oscars in his hands
And kissing beauty queens
What might have been
What might have been
When we were young
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